~BellaxRivolta

Well, I have been in California for a month now, and I am loving every moment of it. Santa Barbara is one of the most beautiful cities I have ever been to, and I feel so at home here. I finally secured a job, working the cafe at this huge Borders in the middle of downtown, and I am loving that so far. My 101 class is extremely difficult, as I have pretty much NEVER worked with film processing of any kind before, and it's a challenging class to begin with. Hopefully I will do better soon *-*. I have run into another delemma, though.
I have been wanting to shoot for Suicide Girls for over a year now, but I need to find models who aren't SG's, are willing to be nude, and who want to be SG's. I need a model who will use a set of mine as their first set for the site, so that I they can recommend me to models in the future. I want to do this so badly, but I don't know how. Anyone in the area have any ideas? I'm all out *-*

Well, that's about it for now, Night!

-Jessie

Hello there!
I'm back! Huzzah! Well, after taking a semester off of school at Hofstra to work for a school portrait company called "Irvin Simon Photographers" in Queens, I have finally completed my move to California. And since I am going to need my car while out there, I decided to drive across the country, with my boyfriend and a close friend of mine. Right now we are in Ludlow, CA, on our way to Oxnard, where our next hotel will be. We have driven for 6 days so far, every night we have stayed in a different city. Monday it was Columbus, OH; Tuesday was in St. Louis, MO; Wednesday we stayed in Oklahoma City, OK; Thursday was spent in Albuquerque, NM; and last night we slept in Needles, CA. I saw my first palm tree last night, and I hugged it heh. I can't believe how beautiful it is out here. Many photos will come from the trip, that much is obvious.
As a New Yorker, I can say that I have never seen this much empty space anywhere in my entire life. And I love traveling through the mountains. Thank goodness my car is in as good condition as it is. Well, I should be going, I need to direct Sam, as he is driving right now. Adios!

-Jessie

Hey kids.. Well, the end of the semester is truly upon us, and I am stressed about my Art History final, and also with finding time to squeeze in so many shoots with girls that I will not see next year, as I am moving very soon, and will not be returning to Hofstra. It's a little saddening, I guess. I'm not the type to fall out of contact with those that I make close bonds with, so I'm not worried
Finally finished a painting that is due in oh, 6 hours? heh. Not too sure whether or not I'll be on DA after I move out, since my internet situation at home is less than favorable, so we'll see how that goes...A friend of mine at work, and aspiring model offered to pay me over the summer to compile a portfolio for her, and a musical group (which Charles, in my last series is part of) also offered to commission my poor butt for photos, so hopefully those will be enough money to help me further in my "not go to California and starve because I am out of money" budget plan! hah..I'm silly..I titled this entry in the current problem I have been in, and the thing that almost made me lose my will to shoot this week, and god knows how long after that? I let my emotional attatchment to someone ruin a potentially awesome shoot (I may or may not be posting any of those, it depends, as I refuse to disclose who that is), and risk my success and publicity as a photographer. Career, Jessie...Career is before everything. I have taken so much time, and effort to get where I am, and I'm not letting a silly thing like feelings get in the way of that. I refuse. I am finding a cozy seat for myself in this highly competitive world, with or without someone by my side... That's just the way it's going to be..
On other things, behold! The return of Cheryl, with much more confidence and radiance that I have ever seen in her. She is absolutely amazing, and as you'll see when I upload all of the photos, takes my creative shit quite well . Well, that's about all for now, I'm about to pass out in my nice bed, and it's very very early in the morning *-* Wish me luck on my painting critique! <3

- J.

Hope I spelled that right, heh. Well, I have officially broken my rally/protest virginity over the weekend. On Sunday, I took a bus to Washington, DC to attend a rally for the genocide currently taking place in the Sudan, specifically in Darfur. It was absolutely breath-taking to see that many people in one place, for one cause.
The next day, I went into New York City for a march for immagration rights. I don't know what had gotten into me. We had a certain spanish chant, in which one person would ask a question, and the croud would respond. Well, when the thousands of people around us had gotten quiet during the march, I decided to scream out "Que Queremos!" (What do we want?), and I witnessed something amazing. The entire croud responded the way the chant required, and they had no clue who was screaming. I was screaming so loud, that my voice soon became horse, and I could hardly talk that night. I felt so alive at that moment, I had no longer doubted my ability to stand up and participate in something that I normally wouldn't have ever done. This whole experience gave me faith in the people in this world, and their fearless passiosn for things that they want in life. It made me very revolutionary, hehe...
So...what else is new...Well, only two weeks more of classes, then off to my home to deal with preparations for the big move to Santa Barbara. And, I can proudly say that I am absolutely terrified...I'm just so concerned that I won't be able to make it, and will have to back home to a family who knew I couldn't do it, and had been betting when I would come home. Damn it...That's not how it's going to happen. I don't care if I'm scared, lonely, depressed, or anything in California. I have to stay. I will do this, no matter what. If not, I have nothing left to hope for in my career. I am literally abandoning everything I knew to go to this damned school. So yeah...rambling time is over
I'll be doing two couples' shoots within the next two weeks, so that should be entertaining. Yes, everyone, I am back to models, heh. And you thought I had become a nature freak, heh. It's just that with finals, none of my models are willing, and I can't pay them, so I bend on their schedules. Also, I had to prove that I was flexible. Frankly, the flowers started to bore me heh. Well, besides that, I chopped off most of my hair, and I am very happy with the results. This is the shortest I've ever had it, and it's very liberating...Well, time for the yapping to cease. Later!
-Jessie

Hallo all...

Guess what?.....


.......

...........Did you guess yet?



Well, I got a letter from Brooks the other day, and it said.....

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!

Wooo! I'm in, bitches! hehe... Holy shit!!! Oh my god! I am the quintescence of excitement right now! Yay me! I am so proud, it's unbelievable...In your fucking face, Bard College!! Oh man, so much happy crammed into one little redhead! hahaha....I'm going to go in a corner and babble for a couple more months, if you all don't mind...*orgasm*.. <3

-Jessie